Where Do I Even Begin?

Maybe the more appropriate question is How do I even begin? But "where" sure seems to fall right in there. So much of what I've been the last 19 years has been WITH Steven in so many ways. So WHERE do I go from here?

I have an 8 year old son I must protect. I must make sure he gets help and support. He is in counseling every 2 weeks. We have a tremendous support system, which we are extremely blessed with. Many people in our situation are not as blessed in that way.

But, the farm economy has not been great for quite some time, and with the failing economy came Steven's failing health. We are not alone in an industry that has left many in hundreds of thousands of dollars of debt. How do I deal with this debt? I cannot run a feedlot. I cannot plant and harvest crops. I CAN tell you I want to protect my home. I want to protect my land. I am just not sure how that will happen.

I am lost.